Tuesday, January 19, 2010

3 hour sleep, 5 am conversation and camwhoring spree.

So. Who the fuck still reads this shit? Apparently someone does cause my views keep blowing up. UNLESS it's just me viewing my own page? I wouldn't be surprised if that's the reason why =( ... To my audience, I noticed that I may have been blogging and appearing to be some what bipolar. I assure you that I'm not. I'm just weird, there is a difference between being weird and being bipolar. I would know because I went to CAMH where I had a sit in with a patient suffering from it. She described all the symptoms and the experiences she has. I just wanted to clarify that! YOU KNOW WHAT I WISH FOR? A day. Just one day where EVERYONE has to be honest, sure all hell might break loose... maybe... it's a large possibility but it would also make everyone's life easier to possess answers rather than to ponder 'what if' questions. So my facebook picture racked up quite a few comments in the course of what, 4 days? A little hectic because some of those comments are SO FOOLISH. *Sigh*. My new note? Piling up comments too! I love when your art is presented and the audience acknowledges your work. It's an amazing feeling. I'm feeling more of a soft track now but I'm so used to writing about pain, suffering and violence so how can I make a full turn around AND have the lyrics sound decent, not cheesy? No matter what I'm pretty sure the rhymes will be corny. The thoughts of composing it are there I just need more inspiration to produce SOMETHING... AH. How the hell am I suppose to get that?
*I realized that in the process of my work, I go through memories of pain and create from that. I have tried to write lyrics based on positive events but my mind just slowly pulls me back to the negative ones. Thus, the results ALWAYS send a morbid vibe to the audience. Although, that is what people feed off of right? No one likes to read the good, happy joyous material. They like to be told that there are many people in much worse situations than they are or at least, people want pessimistic material that they can relate to. Where as with lyrics depicting how good the artist's situation is, it's kind of rubbing it in faces of the less fortunate. Anyway, my mind just trailed off from the original topic. It's hard to write something good, makes people happy and doesn't sound cheesy or repetitive from other artists in the media.

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