Expressing Emotions

Any feelings towards serious situations or feelings in general I find I don't come straight forward, I more dodge those questions and/or IMPLY my emotions. It's a habit I guess, only a few ever know when something is actually bothering me but I don't admit it to them.
I rely on my book more, hiding my feelings and later pouring it out over blank pages converting it into a work of art. It's what I've been doing for the past couple years now. As I was growing up no one was there to listen to me, every time I spoke I was interrupted or unheard. Sometimes someone would say the exact same thing I said and others would pay attention to each of their word. It's like I might as well dig a damn hole and crawl inside because they muted me... what was the point of expressing one's feelings right? Which then I found music, and not listening to music but CREATING something that is recognized as art and a sense of therapy. A doorway to escape. To be able to pour everything out and no one interrupt you, or question you right in the middle of a sentence. And no one can say the same thing because they won't have the same artistic vision. It's a unique form that I was blessed to obtain. THIS is when I was noticed. Aside from my poetry, I was invisible. I guess I was translucent.
Even to this day I'm interrupted and unheard of. So I constantly go back to the book. After years of bottling everything inside and unleashing it through composing something. It's hard to just come right out and say it. I'm so used to no one being there to hear me that it's a procedure to take out the book, pull out a pencil and open a vein. So when somethings wrong and someone asks, the automatic response is no. Cry on a shoulder? Pfft. I'll drop a few tears in my book instead.
I've been using this as a crutch for too long, I want to be heard.
I want my voice, without all these papers... But who can I turn to that will listen?
I'll learn to pick the right people to open up to some day, but until then... it's just me, my book and blogspot!